6/23/2016 0 Comments A Safe PlaceI have a gift; but it’s a shy talent. It only seems to work best if nobody’s looking. Do you have a gift like that? The thing that you excel at when the seats are empty and backs are turned? In obscurity it seems is the only place that I can be myself but this in and of itself is a conundrum because I can’t stay in hiding all the time.
But then again . . . maybe. . . I can. Is it possible to have the best of both worlds? I discovered it that it just might be possible exactly three weeks ago on a Sunday. Sunday, May 22nd, 2016 to be exact.
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5/12/2015 0 Comments Is He The One?? (Part Ten)Okay. I’m back. Trying to tell you how this all went down. . .
. . . Where shall I begin? You would think that it’d be a simple story to write considering that I know how it ends. There’s so much to say but the only way to tell it is by, well. . .writing. So one evening while blubbering to my mother about my heart troubles in her bedroom, she looked at me and said, “I think that you need to write some things down” and she handed me a book entitled Write it Down, Make It Happen . So I read it and intrigued, I began to write on the flicker of hope that what this author Henriette Anne Klauser promised actually worked and wonder of all wonders and to my delight – It did!
10/26/2013 0 Comments This Is Me. . .Staring at myself in the mirror, I sighed and took a good look. A young African American female stood there with dark brown curls highlighted honey blond, a curvy figure and shapely hips. Taking a deep breath I thought to myself and said, “This is me.”
Not as though I was seeing myself for the first time but as though for the first time I was finally accepting myself. All of a sudden I’m in front of people.
I’m not used to this spot. No. I’m comfortable being in the background. In the shadows. Thinking but not saying. Wishing but not acting. Following – not leading. I suppose that it is here that I should have a profound quote regarding leadership that dispels my lack of confidence in such a thing and that says how important it is to take on this role in life, but I don’t have any of that. Not because I couldn’t find such a quote – no, there are plenty of them out there; but this is a post about my perspective on my transition from the shadows to the forefront, managing myself in this process and quite frankly how I am dealing with it. One thing that I’ve long struggled with is making decisions. Sure, the small everyday decisions are not the problem (i.e. What will I wear today? What do I want to eat? What will I start on first when I arrive to work?) But the decisions I’m speaking of are the LIFE decisions - the BIG ones. (choosing a life partner, a career choice and even sometimes yes, buying a car). What I’ve wrestled with is making a decision and sticking with it. Ultimately, I have struggled with commitment.
9/10/2013 You Gotta Get it Wrong to Get it Right!There's a funny thing about not being perfect and that is the fact that you have to work through all the mess. What mess? The mess we make in attempting something new. The "mess" we make in being ourselves. The mess we make in doing. Maybe that’s why a lot of us don’t do – because it is messy and we don’t want anyone to get the perception that we’re not perfect. Where did we get this perception that we are or “should be” perfect? Maybe it comes from the concept of growing up. . . .
4/29/2013 0 Comments We Have Help!So I was teaching Sunday School yesterday on the subject: The Arrival of the Holy Ghost. Ya' know the day of Pentecost and all that. (If you've spent any time in church it is highly likely that you've heard of it and if not keep reading!) As much as I love God and as as much as I know the bible and as much as I know ABOUT God and that he is a 3-part being this was NOT an easy lesson for me to teach.
8/10/2012 2 Comments It Takes Faith To Write!Despite the fact that I am a writer, a blank page can scare me. It is many times the thing that I don’t want to see. Because it’s asking for something:
My heart. It wants to hear what it has to say and the paper only wants the truth. Because most times when I sit down, I don’t know what to say. I don’t yet know my truth. Yet it is something that I know I must do because it’s the only way that I can hear myself and make any sense of the thoughts in my mind and it is one of the few ways that my heart will speak. Although, I must admit that I don’t know what I’m afraid of because I always like to listen to the song of my heart. It is truly myself, it’s comforting and it’s true. A page is only a portal to the real you. Sitting there, holding your pen you may start out with your brain – but when you have written you have most definitely ended with your heart. Yet despite this gap between where you are and where you want to be (i.e. your brain and your heart) and despite the fact that I start out with no plan only with a curiosity to know, I hop the slide right into myself and write; knowing that the right words will come despite my not knowing what they will be when I first put my pen to that blank page. And when I look up and am done – my heart is on paper. It takes faith to write. |