3/25/2019 5 Comments Do I Love you?Have you ever enjoyed by the idea of someone? Or maybe I should say the idea of something? Not that you know it at the time – that is, that you only enjoy the “idea” of it. You think you’re just enjoying them; they’re fun, easy to hang around and on some level you “click.” That is, until, someone gets “serious” and you begin to consider making this person a permanent part of your life; a husband, a wife, a “life partner” and then all of a sudden the REAL questions arrive.
You know the ones.
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3/19/2019 1 Comment March 19th, 2019I am obedient. I do what I am told.
I pretty much have always been that way. Why? It minimizes risk. It avoids conflict. It keeps the trains running smoothly. So it’s no surprise that I should be a “secretary,” or as I like to call it an Administrative Assistant (never call me a secretary by the way; those are fighting words). “I don’t like my life”
The thought crossed my mind just as easily and habitual as though it crossed it every day trying to slip by unnoticed and gain entrance into my heart; bringing with it it’s friends of depression, fear and resignment. And maybe it does, slip by every blue moon, but this time, I seemed to be okay with it lingering for a while. I’m not sure as to why this day was different; at other times, I think the thought, snatch it up and toss it out. But when it re-visited me this time knocking on the door of my brain, I choose to accept it. 3/14/2019 0 Comments Jumping in? I am. . .ready or not!This I my new normal.
Writing and posting. Not overthinking, learning not to care so much. |