All of a sudden I’m in front of people.
I’m not used to this spot. No. I’m comfortable being in the background. In the shadows. Thinking but not saying. Wishing but not acting. Following – not leading. I suppose that it is here that I should have a profound quote regarding leadership that dispels my lack of confidence in such a thing and that says how important it is to take on this role in life, but I don’t have any of that. Not because I couldn’t find such a quote – no, there are plenty of them out there; but this is a post about my perspective on my transition from the shadows to the forefront, managing myself in this process and quite frankly how I am dealing with it.
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