So one evening while blubbering to my mother about my heart troubles in her bedroom, she looked at me and said, “I think that you need to write some things down” and she handed me a book entitled Write it Down, Make It Happen . So I read it and intrigued, I began to write on the flicker of hope that what this author Henriette Anne Klauser promised actually worked and wonder of all wonders and to my delight – It did! Armed with a broken heart, a notebook and a comfy arm chair, nightly, I began to write letters to my basketball player and tell him the things that I didn’t have to the courage to tell him in person, and I apologized for hurting him when in truth I may have only injured his feelings. Because if any cruelty had been done it had been done on my part to myself because I had no advocate and no one to defend the way I felt and no one to fight for me. But she was there – she just didn’t have a voice yet. For if I had had an advocate outside of myself this muscle of defense would not have been built or strengthened and I would not have been able to write these words to you today. So this was how I discovered a new love and took up journaling and I wrote myself right out of heart break and into another relationship, and wrote and wrote and continued to write trying to “make things happen” as I went and what I found was more than a place where I could make my dreams come true but even more so a residence where I could be myself (and man did I need it); a place where I wouldn’t – and more importantly COULDN'T - be judged and a place that would listen, and hear me out. . .a place where I could truly be me! No holds barred. And before my eyes I watched as things changed for me – over and over again. I began to date (more than I ever had in my life) – I moved out of my parents home to 3-level townhouse (described in my journal entry below) If you have a hard time reading the Journal Entry above, here it is below: This is the type of place that I would like to live in: a condominium close to my place of employment with 2 master bedrooms, with separate bathrooms, a washer / dryer (preferably new), a 2-car garage, a nice-sized kitchen with an island in the middle of it. A dining area with a beautiful light fixture over the top of it. An upstairs / downstairs with a nice sized refrigerator/ freezer and microwave with a den and family / entertaining area. I would like to have the money to furnish it the way I would as well as . . . . I got EVERYTHING I wanted! Word for word! Even my job / relationships were changing. I preached to anyone and everyone (as I am to you) that I could about this book I passed out to friends and I stood by it saying that had changed my life! I had found the key. . . . . or so I thought. . . .
I had opened the doors to my dreams and more importantly, I had unlocked something within myself. But I was to go deeper. There was something else in me that was still not addressed. It was evidenced in a dream – a recurring dream I’d had since I was a teenager. But I never paid any attention to that dream until almost 5 years later when a dark cloud of a new chapter entered my life. Continue onto Part 4 here. . Read Part 2 Here
5 Comments
jessica
1/31/2014 03:56:31 pm
What!!! So when do we get to part 4 ???
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Karen Hardy
1/31/2014 08:43:54 pm
Very intriguing Christina-- your style of writing captivates your readers and keeps them anticipating every next word and thought. I truly appreciate your openness and transparency from which true healing can be derived. Great job lady! Keep up the good work.
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Carmen Harris
1/31/2014 10:05:34 pm
All I can say is Wow, Christina. I agree with Karen Hardy , you are an awesome writer. To be able to describe your real-life experience in such a way that the readers can visualize and relate to what you are saying is an art. Can't wait until the next post.
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2/1/2014 03:22:33 am
Hey Everyone! Thank you so much for the comments! Jessica - I'm working on Part 4 as we speak! Thank you so much Karen and Carmen for your kind words! I'm so glad that you enjoyed it! Please subscribe and stay posted!!!
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2/3/2014 10:34:34 am
yep, once again, can't wait for part 4!!!! love it girlie!!! :))
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