5/12/2015 0 Comments Is He The One?? (Part Ten)Okay. I’m back. Trying to tell you how this all went down. . . . . . Where shall I begin? You would think that it’d be a simple story to write considering that I know how it ends. There’s so much to say but the only way to tell it is by, well. . .writing. **************************************************************************
So, let’s see, as I last left the story I was instructed to seek God about my future with the man that I was currently dating. So I did. I sought him, through prayer, through journaling and through writing. It had become apparent to me that this was the right course of action due to the results of me trying too many ways to figure this relationship out on my own either by ending it, by jumping back in it, or just plain “winging” it and per those situations, (click on the link to read about those situations here and start at the beginning of this story) I no longer trusted myself (or others) to make this decision on whether or not he was the one for me. So, I was driven to my knees to the one who I knew, knew the future. It was only he who could tell me whether or not this would be a good decision. So I asked God, but I didn’t force the answer. I didn’t beg him and I would not despair for what seemed to be lack of an immediate response. I let God answer in his own time and sat back in my relationship to see what that response answer would be. This time I didn’t call it quits, I stayed in it. I stuck it out and it wasn’t long before I knew what was to be done. At the beginning of our reconciliation between me and my boyfriend there was simply no difference. Things just went back to the way they had been between the two of us: enjoying each other’s company, lazily lying in each other’s arms and on each other’s couches, movie and dinner dates, late night phone calls and casual texts throughout the day. Then there were some twists; things given a different spin from before. Developments, good, I would say, and events that we needed to experience with each other in order for us to determine what this would be; a road trip for Christmas to visit my family, the passing of a close friend where intense grief was encountered; for myself - staying in this relationship longer than 2 months J and spending increased time around one another’s families. But there were also small things. Red flags maybe? Or maybe not. Occurrences that could easily go undetected and might not agitate another, yet they were things that I pocketed. A brief apology issued for not bringing back a gift from a business trip that was taken, when future holidays approached no invitation was extended. Flowers which had not been a rare occurrence in the first two attempts were now, non-existent. I began to wonder about our investment in each other. Wonder if we were what each other truly wanted or needed? Maybe we weren’t right for each other? Because shouldn’t some of those things just be, well, natural? Being around one another’s family, sharing an experience with another either through stories, or gifts or whatever? Were we playing a role? There was no hurry to make this relationship final or permanent was evident. What were we doing? Where were we going? Despite all my questions however, I wasn’t worried about my relationship’s progress or its seeming lack of it because if I want to be open and honest and about it something else or maybe I should say someone else had begun to occupy quite a large part of my thoughts and quite frankly my time. . . . Who is it? Click here to find out!! Read the previous entry Part 9 here. . .
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