2/7/2014 0 Comments The Dream . . . (Part 4)The dream always seemed to fade in – like a movie sort of . . . yes, like a cloudy introduction to a movie. As though one has wandered upon a scene in progress coming out of a hazy fog and it is for this reason that I don’t always remember exactly how it would start – but two things were certain – I was always in my childhood bedroom and I was always on the floor. There I lay, face down under the windowsill doing my best to try and hide from the giant person towering over me looking in from the outside, peering into the window and down at me. I was ‘hiding” unsuccessfully however, because even though try as I might, the person looking over my windowsill could always see me. Knowing this, I still would not move, desperately willing the individual above to just go away, convinced that remaining fixed in my position would eventually lead them to do just that. But, regrettably, they never did. No, there they would remain, calling my name, smiling down at me, as though they had uncovered some prize by finding me, such as winning the latest game of hide-and-go-seek, and in that moment I hated them because “Didn’t they know that I did not want to be found? Didn’t they know that I did not want to be noticed?? If I could have cried in my dream – I surely think I would have, because it was there that I was desperate to be left alone. And the dream would fade out just as it had faded into my consciousness – seemingly unnoticed – and then I would awake; the events that had just occurred fresh in my mind leaving me with an unsettled feeling, and the hovering thought that “I had had ‘it’ again . . .”
Despite the fact that I always recognized these uninvited people (be they family or friend) who would peer over at me through my windowsill, the questions lingered WHO were they and WHAT did they represent? WHAT were they looking into and WHY was I hiding and WHAT from?? WHAT was this dream’s significance and what’s more disconcerting than that was the obvious question WHY on earth did the dream keep coming back???? Continue on to Part 5 Here . . . Read the Previous Entry Part 3 Here
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