You can't START the story here!!!! Click below to read Part 1 or Part 2 ==================================== After our 2nd "reunion", we officially became friends on Facebook and these facts were able to be confirmed and it was no question that he wasn't “attached”. Now that it was “real” – should I jump at this opportunity of love again w/ him? But, as I mentioned before, I was different- I didn’t know if I wanted to try again, possibly he did? Maybe his attempts to contact me were friendly attempts at conversation or messages to get “the conversation” started through Facebook Messenger but whatever they were, I treaded carefully still unsure if this was a path that I would like to go down. This was a conundrum to me. How could something that had been so important to me just 8 years prior be the same thing that I was still unsure about later? Why wouldn’t I have immediately chosen the same thing? Why wouldn’t I have reached out and grabbed this up when once again presented with the opportunity? Or at the very least just “gone with it” to see where it could possibly lead? I was definitely not afraid any longer. I was considering all of this when I was presented with an odd thought. Maybe . . . just possibly . . . it was because I would never have chosen him at all. I shook my head firmly. No, that couldn’t be the reason. How could THAT be the reason?? He had been everything that I wanted. He had all the “bad boy “characteristics that I had so often craved; he was every bit of handsome and tall besides! He had been a stellar athlete in years past and now, as life once again presented us another opportunity to cross each other’s paths; I found myself neutral at best. He was different – but he wasn’t that different; I was different but was I that different? No, I wasn’t. Maybe my heart had known what I'd always choose, what I’d always do – even back then (when I didn't know myself as well), despite my mind, despite my hormones and despite myself all telling me otherwise. Maybe my path had circled back to him just to relay that information to me. How else would I have known it? Maybe I'd always known more I that I thought. These were interesting thoughts, but somehow they made sense and had an element of truth to them. So what would I have told that young college girl, if I could have gone back and seen myself crying on her bed so many moons ago? I would have said the following: “It’s okay to cry love; to mourn, to not understand; but don’t despair or cry too long or too hard. Whatever the heart wants, the heart gets.” Maybe that commentary would have given me faith in my future and let me know that I was making the right choice all along and that if I wasn’t – it would all aright itself and I would have a second chance. Why did I think that I was getting it all wrong? Because I didn’t know that I was not; and it is here that I would like to encourage you. . . . I wasn’t getting it wrong and neither, I believe, are you. You are doing the best you can with the information that you have right now. Life – YOUR Life is happening exactly the way it is supposed to; even though many times, it does not feel that way. And that is the hard part – going on and believing that it’s all working out DESPITE how you feel. Have faith in your future. That missed opportunity may be the very thing that was supposed to be missed. And what you selected was possibly what you always wanted (even if you didn't know it at the time). That is why my approach to life is not to force anything. There’s a reason that it is or is not working and if it’s yours, IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOURS; has always BEEN yours and somehow WILL FIND its way back to you. Many times for me, life has formed a circle allowing me to revisit but always finalizing chapters that oftentimes in the past I thought I would have liked to rewrite. But, despite it all, they all have had GOOD endings even if they were unexpected and one if not many things is definitely for sure- is that on the second time around, there is a lot less crying. Happy Living, Chris **New Series Coming Soon!**
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Jessica
10/31/2016 07:28:56 pm
There sure will be a lot less crying!!! I believe every gal can relate to this 3 part series, we've all been there!!! Once we realize and allow HIM to lead us and guide us then yes there will be a lot less crying!!! Thank you for once again sharing with us your life stories for some life encouragement. As always the writing was superb, it was as if I was sitting at the kitchen table with you enjoying a cup of coffee.
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